I had my first beta today.
But before that, I tested again. I think the line was darker.
Wow. That’s higher than it’s ever been, even with Scarlett. It’s so high (for me) that my doctor doesn’t even want to do anymore testing. She just wants me to book a 7 week scan.
Nope. I can guarantee that I will be getting another test done next week. I think I’ll call up and tell them that I’ve had some bleeding over the weekend. I know that it’s bad karma to lie, but after everything I’ve been through, you can expect me to just wait and see!
I need answers. I need reassurances. I need to know this pregnancy is progressing. Even 3 betas would soothe me. I know it’s a good result, but it’s also the latest result I’ve ever had. I’ve always had my first beta test around 12dpo. Usually I have had 2 betas already.
But I’m hopeful now. So far I haven’t had any bleeding (apart from the pink/watery light red spotting at 12dpo). And the cramping has settled today.
So I don’t know. I’m scared I’m getting my hopes up for a big disappointment. I’m a little scared.