1 year ago today, my world turned upside down. I became responsible for a little human who demanded more attention than I’ve ever given anything. I became the sole provider for a baby. I became a single mum by choice.
This year has brought so many hard times, but it has brought double the amount of good times. I have felt so many emotions over the course of the year. I’ve been scared, anxious, happy, elated, confused, frustrated, defeated, doomed, fascinated and overwhelmed, sometimes on a daily basis. I have learnt so much about the world and love and the purpose of life from just one little person.
I can not even translate into words how much love I have for my little girl. It’s not possible to write it down. It is a deep, unconditional type of love that lives in your bones. It’s the type of love that you can speak about, but never truly express because there is not a word for it. I more than love Scarlett. I live for her. I live for those cheeky smiles and that adorable giggle. I live for chasing her down the hallway after she has escaped the room we were playing in. I live for those little faces she makes when she’s trying something new or discovered something she didn’t know before.
I have loved watching her grow over the last year. Now I have a 1 year old. It doesn’t sound right to say. One. Year. Old.
She is the light of my life and I’m so grateful for her everyday.
Scarlett, my gorgeous girl, I hope you had a fantastic day. I hope all your wishes are answered and I hope you loved all your presents.
You are everything I dreamed you would be and more.
Love you forever and a little bit more.