So after gathering the confidence and deciding to go ahead with meeting the guy I was talking to online, he messaged me today saying he was going to cancel.
I found that strange, since we have been talking for weeks and even today, we had been texting back and forth since 8am.
It was about 3:20pm when I got his message and honestly, I was a little shocked at my reaction.
I was really dissapointed.
This is how the conversation went:
Like I said, I was shocked that I was legitimately dissapointed. I think it was mainly because I had accepted the meeting and had come to terms that whatever happened would happen. I guess I wasn’t expecting him to pull out.
It dissapointed me because I guess I saw potential there and suddenly none of that mattered.
I tried to play it off and make the best out of it. I think I handled it in the best way possible. I was nice and he was nice.
My friend was supportive and gave me the ‘there is plenty of fish in the sea’ talk, which was super cute of her, but I found that once I got over the disappointment, I got really mad.
Like, we had been communicating every day, all day, for a full two weeks. HE was the one who contacted ME. HE was the one who asked to meet up, not ME. And now HE is pulling out?
I get that people have changes of the heart and I’m not trying to imply that I would have begged him to meet up with me, but wouldn’t you know if you wanted to meet with someone after two weeks?
Now I’m over my anger and I’ve decided to put it behind me. Like I said, it’s disappointing to me because I saw a lot of potential, but obviously that wasn’t something that was shared between us. Which is fine. Not everyone is suited for everyone. And I certainly have more self worth than to beg or convince someone to meet me when they obviously don’t want to.
I guess we will see where this journey takes me!
On the plus side, my friend and I are still going to go get milkshakes as a ‘fuck you’ to him and the universe. Lol!
Talk soon! X